Doctor Peter Kreymerman is the BEST🚩

from left to right ♥ Dr. George Lawson ♥ The beautiful Heather Lucas ♥ ME and ♥Dr. PK♥ are they cute or what?


Boy going to the Mayo is an all day adventure, I had 3 appointments today. I hated going into the infusion wing today. the smell disgusts me, but I was very proud of myself I did not have a panic attack today. When I walked in there were 4 people getting infusions, chemo or something else it made me sad to see them there with no-one but nurses, I remember when I 1st met Dr. Northfelt he told me how lucky I was to have Tamy go with me to my chemo appointments. It made me want to go up to each one of those people today and hug them or sit with them, my heart broke watching each of them. I am so grateful to Tamy for not only being so sweet and patient with me but I still can't believe the time that she took out of her day every other week for months to pick me up and drive me to chemo, I have to say we usually had all the nurses laughing though, never a dull moment with Tamy.

OK so I got to see my favorite doctor of all time today, Dr. Peter Kreymerman.... I love him....but before I talk about him I want to introduce you to Dr. George Lawson (aka Doogie Houser) I blogged last week about going to see Dr. PK but I did not post it and kept it as a draft for my personal journal. The reason is because Dr. Kreymerman and his wife had their baby and I didn't know if he would appreciate me posting pictures of his new baby with her name birthday and weight. I will say she is one of the most beautiful baby girls I have EVER seen. So this is what happened, last week I was sitting for a lot longer than usual waiting for Dr. PK to come in, but instead this other cute Doctor walked in, he looked like he was 12 years old, he introduced himself as
Dr. Lawson, and explained about the baby being born and Dr. Pk was not in the office, then he wanted to examine me .... remember I am thinking this kid can't be more than 12 years old well maybe 21, and he wants to look at my boobs? He was actually very professional and I liked him, just weird not having PK there.

So today, I'm waiting for Doctor Kreymerman to come in... the door opens and it's Doogie Houser again, he is really cute, I got brave and finally asked him how old he was... all I will say is that he is not 12 or 21. I love all these young doctors who take time with their patients, I know if I needed to talk to Doctor Kreymerman I could take the time I needed and he would never make me feel rushed, this is part of what makes him such a great Doctor I hope he never changes that part of who he is. I can tell that Doctor George Lawson is going to be a great doctor too, how could he not working with Dr. Peter Kreymerman?

Doctor Kreymerman came in to visit and examine me ..... no doctor that I have ever had in my lifetime is like Dr. Kreymerman. I am going to miss him when he leaves for his fellowship in Atlanta, and when I am no longer his patient. He is a daddy now, and just as any proud daddy should he pulled out the pictures, oh my gosh I couldn't stop looking at her she is absolutely beautiful, so is his wife though. Not that PK isn't cute and all but his wife and baby are gorgeous, he is a very lucky man, and I love that he acknowledges the beauty of his wife and daughter.

I will be having another surgery on Dec 9th, I love my dates with Dr. Peter Kreymerman have I told you that he is my favorite doctor? ha ha And today he went even higher on my list of awesomeness..... he told me I could take the BRA off .... just another reason to love a doctor ...one that tells you "you don't ever need to wear a BRA again" you gotta love that

The SCAR Project

This morning as I looked at my body in mirror, a tear ran down my cheek, I know I have said it before but I am so grateful,
Dr.Peter Kreymerman is the best doctor in the world, my breasts look normal, yes there are scars but those scars represent so much more than a scalpel to the skin. They represent my battle wounds, I have said so many times in posts that I don't ever want to forget, those scars will never allow me to forget.
It made me think about the words to Mindy Gledhhill's song "All About Your Heart" ... this is what I imagine Heavenly Father will say to me and to others who have physical scars from life's wounds....

"I've loved you from the start
in every single way, and more each passing day.
You are brighter than the stars, believe me when I say
it's not about your scars, it's all about your heart"


I believe that our Heavenly Father sees us so differently then we see ourselves, and if we could see ourselves through his eyes we would weep and be humbled at his UN-conditional love for us.


I hope this will not offend anyone, I will warn you if you click on the link it is GRAPHIC, but it is a real artists talent at showing the beauty of women who go through breast cancer. I did some research on the Artist he only photographs women who are ages 18-35. All of the women have had either a lumpectomy, single or double mastectomy.
click on the link below and it will take you to the website.

click here to view the SCAR PROJECT

I am the Luckiest ♥

My life has been overloaded with heartache and let downs but through it all I know that I am the Luckiest girl. Through those stumbles and falls, I have learned so much about who I am, and what kind of woman I want to be. I'm still learning to adjust to my "NEW LIFE" I cannot deny the physical pain, or the times in my life when I have felt alone in those trials, but I also can never deny the lessons I've learned, and the spirit I have felt, the Lord has answered many of my prayers, not always in a way that I thought they should of been answered, but still I sure am a lucky girl, the luckiest to find some peace of mind and some HOPE in a world that at times has felt overwhelmingly depressing. The last couple of months have been the happiest I have felt in a very long time. There are angels who come into our lives, not by chance, they are put in our lives by our dear Heavenly Father who loves us and wants us to be happy. It's been difficult sometimes at the end of long days, feeling empty and just wanting an angel to take me away from it all, lucky for me that angel happens to be on this earth. She was an answer to more than one prayer, I have felt the arms of that angel around me, on those endless nights when no pain medicine can take it away I have felt comfort in her words, and I thank the Lord for her everyday. I always have wondered if you could have a connection with someone you have never actually met, The answer is YES, heart to heart, and soul to soul we can be touched, I am so glad I was in a position in my life to feel that overwhelming confirmation.

Whenever I have doubts in life, I trust that God is in control, he brought Trystan in my life, he is watching over me and her. Yes, I am the luckiest, there is not much that I actually KNOW without a doubt, but this I know for sure I lived with HIM before I cam to earth, and I knew Trystan before I came to earth, we were "reconnected" (as Kate says) I often think "what good are tests in life, if we already know the answers?" some things in life take FAITH, and whenever I am doubting myself or my situation, I just hold on to the fact that I KNOW ALL prayers are heard and answered. I need to acknowledge more the Tender Mercies of the Lord, sometimes they are so subtle but if I am listening I can see and feel them. Slow down, walk by faith, and listen to the whispers of the spirit, HE WILL BLESS your life.

Recker 11 months old

I am so happy to have this little guy in my life......

Be Nice

I'm obsessed with people and their reactions in certain situations...... I know I'm weird ....... I've said it before I'm a people watcher, some may even put me in the category of stalker, I have always wondered what makes people do the things they do. Today I was driving to meet up with my daughter, I was sitting at a light and looking in my rear view mirror when the light changed and it took me a few seconds to get going the lady in the car behind me threw her hands up in the air, she was so upset that I had wasted those precious seconds of her life, then when she hurried around me she waved her middle finger at me and yelled something out the window.... I just smiled and continued on my way. I understand when life's challenges get us down or when we have a bad day, but seriously is it necessary to treat others with anger? It's not pretty, it's actually very ugly to see. Tonight I was at the grocery store checking out and I noticed the woman behind me was upset because she did not have a bar to divide my items from hers, I just watched her as she stewed and worried about it, after all my groceries were added up I swiped my card, and the lady yelled and I mean yelled at the teller helping me "hey" pointing to one of my items that accidentally got mingled in with hers "that is not mine, that is hers" I could tell the young guy was embarrassed, I told him "no big deal I will just pay cash for it" and he smiled and said "thanks, and I'm sorry that happened" when he gave me my change back I was trying to put it in my wallet and the lady was pushing her cart against my backside, trying to get me to move faster. Seriously? Can't we all just be nice? I love people watching, and I learn from others what I don't want to be like.

I was a NORMAL woman today

I never thought this day would come, I need a haircut, or style or something. I get asked all the time if I am going to let it grow out as long as it was before ........ my answer is always "Yes" I love long hair, but people are constantly telling me I should keep it short.... they're probably right I'm getting too old to have long hair, however, putting OLD AGE aside It's a control thing with me, I want to show the VILLAIN who's boss. I love the curls my hair has now, all my life I wanted curly hair, but it was straight as a board, someone told me the other day she always had curly hair and wanted straight hair.... we are never happy are we? ha ha
I have not had a hair appointment with Kara for almost a year now, and I hate to say it but the last hair appointment I had with her was full of tears, this appointment will be a rejoicing of sorts... This appointment was fun, we visited like always, laughed like always, and solved all the world problems like always..... No tears today .... I can't do much with my hair yet, but it felt good to sit in her chair again, I felt like a normal busy woman just stopping in for a hair trim and highlight.

Road Trip

This morning Eric and I woke up early, I mean really early .... 3:10 am got ready and drove to Eagar for my Aunt Naydines funeral. Eric always does all the driving, I seriously hate driving If I could of flown I would of. Eagar is 4 hours from our home and in the cool pines of Arizona. Eric woke me up at one point to show me all the huge Elk just leisurely walking on the side of the road, then he woke me up to show me the temperature outside was 14 degrees .... wholly cow it was cold.

We spent most of our day in the car, in fact we were in the car for more hours than we were at the funeral. On our road trip, I reminded Eric that today 24 years ago my brother Lance passed away, he was 15 years old. I remember that night like it happened yesterday. I blamed myself for a long time, why didn't I get him to the hospital , why didn't I know he was that sick? I have worked through those issues, I still miss him and wonder what type of man he would of been, who he would of married and how many children he would of had. Not too many days go by that I don't think of him, he was a funny kid and also could be quite annoying, but I loved him and look forward to seeing him again.
Also on our road trip we talked about how beautiful the Aspen trees were, and how nice it was to be cold and wear coats, boots and layer our clothes. Our long trip included discussions on life, death, recurrence, medical marijuana, and my new friend Trystan. I love spending time with Eric and thanked him for driving me to the funeral, I know it was not exactly what he wanted to do today.

Tonight I am so tired, we came home so quickly after the funeral this morning because I had tickets to see Mindy Gledhill tonight. I have been looking forward to this night for along time, Kayla and my sister Sonya went with me. We had a great time, Mindy was so cute and entertaining, listening to the story behind each song made me appreciate each song even more. I have her music on my blog, if you have never heard of her listen to a few of her songs they are great. I go to bed tonight not only exhausted but grateful for so many blessings in my life right now.

Blake in the DR

All the Elders helping out


Mormon Hands that Help

Blake and Daniel his companion

This weeks email from Blake he sent these pictures of the Mormon Hands that Help project clean up.

well this week has been really wet and we have been arriving at the house and houses of members soaking wet as if we jumped in a swimming pool ha but we have been trying hard, i finished the Book of Mormon (en spanish) this week and wow i have learned so much from that book and i really have been able to understand the things that i need to change in my life, but i started to read Doctrine and Covanents this last monday and now i am in seccion 21 i need to finish to seccion 30 by sunday, but the area is progressing a little by little the investigators we have are sweet but no one wants to assist the church on sundays so its hard they are really smart and we are really trying all that we can to help them understand and learn..........but this week it should be a lot better they say that its ot going to rain as much this week but who knows, we met the family of a baseball player Luis Pelonia, or where he lives its nuts hes got a Lion, yea a real lion in his house its soo crazy haha theres another one that lives right by us named Carlos Pena his house is sweet hes got a little basebal field at his house and like 15 cars of every kind haha.........but this week is going to be a lot more successful cuz there wont me as much rain and bad weather, i love you guys i will talk to you later

les quiero muchoo

Thankful

In this month of Thanksgiving, I am thankful for these random things that come into my head ... ha ha

●cooler weather●green grass●blue skies●
●hugs from recker● emails from the DR●people who smile●
●mysti●clean fresh sheets●cute boots●open roads from utah to arizona●
●december 18th●haleigh●my body●hair●cute notes left on my bedroom door●
●grapefruit●AJ'S refillable cup●choices●good VT'S●LOVE●
●Dr Kreymerman●Heather Lucas his assistant●
●medicne that works●pumpkin pie●ERIC●doorbell ditchers who leave yummy stuff●testimony●kayla and Jeremy●music●
●people that inspire me●Blake●good books●google searches● cinnamon smells●answered prayers●warm fuzzier●Kaitlyn and Brian●Haleigh
●laughter●mayo clinic●tamy scheurn●mickey mouse●organic apple slices●going the extra mile●christmas movies●THANKSGIVING●

try to think in 2 minutes or less all the things you are thankful for.....I'm sure I forgot a few, and some of these are random huh?

Recker's 1st Hair Cut

1st mom tries her hand at cutting hair

then dad

seriously ? both of you ?

Help me bonbon ..... PLEASE

Ok that's enough, both of you get off me

The pile of curls


My cute little grandson Recker got his 1st haircut tonight, I wanted to cry when they cut off his blonde curls.