Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Lopsided

A person I work with said this to me the other day "Hey, are your boobs lopsided because of your mastectomy?"  I was so embarrassed, especially since it was not a question about breast cancer, it was a question asked in front of 6 or 8 other co-workers about something I have not really cared about, until now. My eyes welled up with tears and I had no immediate response, I just quickly sat in my chair and said "yeah, I guess so" It was difficult for me to finish out my shift without thinking about it.  I text my friend Heather (she works with Dr. PK and has been with me since my diagnosis) when I told her what happened, she was so sweet and kind.  Heather told me not worry about it, and that I am a beautiful woman, she said "maybe they are jealous" I laughed and said "It was a guy"   Now that I've had a few days to ponder it, and take a good look at myself in the mirror--no "they" are not perfect--Dr.  Peter Kreymerman said perfection is not going to be achieved.  Now I kinda wish I could go back to that person and say "they are not perfect, but I'm ALIVE ..... and to me that is perfection"  I really don't think this person was trying to be rude, it hurt to hear, but gave me a chance to reflect.  Does it really matter if we are lopsided?  So many times in my life I have felt a little lopsided physically and spiritually.  I just have to get focused again and remember what is most important, balance in everything is not always going to be achieved however, we always have tomorrow to get back on track, I love that the Lord loves us lopsided or not.

5 comments:

lorie said...

Amen, Sista.

Kristi & Austin said...

Monya.... For the sake of many things I will not give examples here..... But this has happened to me several times. Even within my own family such hurtful things have been said to me and I have had no other choice but to learn that the only person that will truly live me with all of my imperfections and lopsidedness is the lord.... And that is just ok:) matter of fact.... How lucky are we to have that!live you girl, hang in there sweet thing thang!

Gooches said...

Your so awesome Monya. I really enjoy reading your posts. They are uplifting. It hurts that you have to go through these experiences all the time...but the way you handle them is inspiring. I am really looking forward to Haliegh babysitting for me. If she is anything like you I would love for it to rub off on my kids!

Marilyn said...

Ok...you must have looked "hot" to him or he wouldn't be checking you out...that's one side of it...the other is he has his nerve to be looking at YOU in that way!!!

I am glad you know that you are loved, cherished, and valued by so many, but no one as much as Heavenly Father.

I have noticed from your pictures you have posted...how healthy and vibrant you look. I say you go girl...and now you have an answer prepared if anyone dares to say that again....and Monya, you are one who can say it... go girl!!!

kittrean tanner said...

Dear Monya...yes, here I am... on your blog.... a comment to your 'lopsided' commenting co-worker...I was showing peri your photos in Venice.... all she was saying, "look a great she looks ! no one would figure out that she has gone through so much with cancer..... she looks so beautiful". There you have it... from a fifteen year old... you are beautiful. I don't know what the heck the co-worker was talking about... it certainly was not an observation... maybe it was, indeed, a question... of curiosity... of 'stupid' curiosity. All I can go on and on about when I talk to you... in church or on your porch... is how incredible you look on the beaches of Puerto Penasco! I hate it when my girls say this.. but, I will use it here... YOU ARE HOT BEBE'. You are an inspiration and a serious motivator for my work-out sessions ! xoxooxxo