The "C" word

Yesterday I was diagnosed with breast cancer...the "C" word was not something I thought I would ever have to go through. I hestitate to post alot about it, but decided I need to get out what I am feeling and let you know what is happening in my little world.
I have been dealing with female issues for the past year, and was told recently that I need to go ahead and have a hysterectomy. I have been kinda bummed about it because the recovery is so long and yucky. The Dr told me he wanted me to go in and have a mammogram because it has been about 4 or 5 years since I had one. My last mammogram showed a lump, but it was not malignant, I had it removed and my Dr told me that I need to make sure to have mammos every 3-6 months because any lumps left un attended can turn into cancer. After a year of that my doctor passed away and I got out of the habit. When I went for this recent mammo it showed a large lump and several small ones on the right breast. My gyno doctor sent me to a surgeon and he sent me in for a biopsy last friday July 31st. The results came in this week I got the call that the doctor wanted to see Eric and I to give us the results in person. Even then I thought that he was just wanting to collect a co-pay to tell me all was clear and that they needed to take out the lump. (it kinda made me mad that I had to go in to hear this) However when I got to the doctors office that was not the news he gave me he said I was positive for ductal carsinoma. Over the next 45 minutes as he explained all my options I did not hear a word he said (good thing Eric was there for that part) all I could think about were my kids...Blake is leaving on his mission in 6 weeks, nothing is going to get in the way of him serving the Lord especially not this, Kaitlyn is very close to engagement, and my Kayla is having our first grandchild in December, Haleigh is so young she needs her mom to help her through her final year of HighSchool.

I thought to myself, this is not real, this cannot be happening to me right now...Oh really? when would be a better time? ha ha I often talk to myself...

The thing is, there is never a good time for trials to come in our lives. I will take each day live it to the fullest and do what I need to do to fight this. I am going to concentrate on all the positive things I have going on right now...my family is the greatest and I dont want them to worry.

I remember my stake President saying that whenever Temples are being built, the people in the area will have trials satan wants to do all he can to keep the family from being happy and will go to every length to break up families, but I actually think this trial will bring my family closer, so too bad satan you lose.