Reflections in the Mirror

With all this good news in my life right now I am feeling good, and happy the past couple of days. I am going to enjoy this time right now, I have been so homesick for Blake, but have decided that the Lord can take much better care of him than I can, so I need to just let him go for now and let the Lord do his thing. In May I will talk to him again then turn him back over to the Lord. Thank you Tamy for your Advice. It's a good thing I only had one son, the Lord knew it would be too hard for me to send them off for 2 years.

Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror naked, like after you get out of the shower? Usually I run into my closet and quickly get dressed, but today I stared at myself for a good 15 minutes, WOW things have changed over the years. Are we as women ever 100% happy with our body? Even when I was running everyday and exercising like a maniac everyday, I was not happy with what my body looked like. But today as I looked into my eyes I saw a different woman, a woman who has endured many trials in her life, that should count for some of those wrinkles I have on my face. I see a woman with a lot of faith, and love for her family and friends more than ever before I love people I never would of given a time of day before, not because I didn't care for them but simply because I felt as if I didn't have time. I see an imperfect body, maybe even a little sick and frail, but inside that imperfect body I see a stronger woman, a woman willing to stand up for her beliefs at any costs, even if I'm the only one standing. Today I am able to look past the imperfections, and more importantly understand that imperfection is in all of us. The Lord does not expect any of us to be perfect, he expects us to come unto him and love one another. Interesting to me, since for most women it is so hard to love what they see in the mirror staring back at them. I never thought I would love the woman staring back at me, but I do, even with my bald head and my face so fair, no eyelashes or eye brows. The past 8 months has brought to light a new perspective on life, too bad I waited 47 years to come to a clear understanding of who I am. I wish I could talk to all young woman and tell them don't wait for something tragic to happen in your life, be faithful and strong now, come to see yourself like the Lord sees you- BEAUTIFUL- HE loves each one of us, and even though we all look different, when we know who we are we learn that in the Lords eye it does not matter, because we were created by him, and HIS is an unconditional love.