Practicing living in the moment has been an intentional goal for my everyday living. I have to remind myself daily of the reward. I've heard it takes 21 days to break a habit so I'm assuming it also takes 21 days to form a habit.
Today I will be seeing my surgeon Dr. Lettieri. The last surgery I had on Thursday took me a little longer to recover from, purging my body of all the anesthesia is draining. Getting up and walking to the bathroom is about as far as I can go, even then I am wobbly, shaky and nauseated. On Sunday I was finally able to eat something, however it tasted of metal.
I feel like the world is hastily passing by just outside my bedroom door. I'm praying Dr. Lettieri will take out the stitches and close the open wound on my neck. The skin graft he took was from another area on my neck and those stitches seem to be healing well.
It's hard for me to comprehend that I have gone under general anesthesia 34 times in less than 6 years. Each time the healing takes longer and seems to weigh down my spirit. I want so badly for all these surgeries to be over. I believe now that this nasty infection is under control we can finally get going with the important issue of the nerve--yes, there will be more surgery; and I will endure.
|My view from pre-op|
|Heidi my pre-op nurse--these nurse are always so sweet to me|
|This is what it looks like now, after surgery.|
I see some bruising on my temple next to my
eye...I always wonder what the heck happens
during surgery to cause these bruises.